Mad
i hate being so angry all the time. why am i angry.Im angry becasue people don't like different, they have a sick twisted obsesion with the norm. For some odd reason the norm seams to be radicle to them...hmmm
Today i was told that there is a fine line betwean being radical and being rebelious...this is funny to me. because this was someone who was basically tellign me that i was just being rebeleouse..that everything that i am doign is selfish, and im doing it just becasue i want to.
This felt like an attack on my heart.
i am simply trying to make sence of a life that is not so perfect, and not so clean and not so mechanical. but everyone around me thinks that becasue im thinking in terms of 2+2could equal 3.they freak out. CANT BE. YOU ARE BEING REBELIOUS. hmmm.
I find it impossible to have a conversation without being attacked any more.
what people fail to realiaze is that its easy to defend the norm..its easy to defend a system that has been arounds for years...but to attempt to change isn't easy..its not easy to defend why i do what i do..it migth not make sence on paper..but im sick of living on paper..I feel that what im doign is more rigth..is it right i don't know..but i know that what i was before sucks.
in order to be radical don't you have to make change...and isn't change in a way a rebelion...can we just not use the word rebellion. its to condeming. im not rebelling im just changing..evolving..tryign to make at least a little bit of sence.
hmmm..
trellis
posted by Mike Willis @ 9:34 PM
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